I took a weekend to myself. A real shocker let me tell you, but it served a true and ready purpose. I simply took the time to think.
Becoming a squire is a step to becoming a knight. It signifies the choice to begin the journey to knighthood by swearing fealty to a knight who will teach you, train you, and guide you on and off of the field. When I wear my squires belt, it represents my desire to become a
knight. It does not only carry my honor but the honor of my knight, my
squire brothers, my lineage, and my kingdom. It is mine and I am
theirs.
When I look at my knight, I succeed
When I look at my brothers, I pull them up beside me
When I look at my lineage, I stand beside them
When I look at my kingdom, I fight with a fierce pride
A view of some of the questions I asked myself and discussed with my knight later in the week.
"Do I want this? Do I actually want to be knighted?"
"Can I represent my kingdom, can I represent my royalty, can I represent my self and my peers with honor?"
"Would I want squires of my own some day?"
"Can I teach other fighters?"
"Besides prowess what else can I offer? Skills? Community? Household?"
"Am I a part of the community? how can I integrate more? What can I offer?"
"What does this belt, my squires belt, mean to me? What will having a white belt mean to me?"
"Do I want the responsibilities knighthood comes with?"